I know spring is almost here but seriously sometimes I wish I could go to a tanning bed for a big dose of winter doldrums banishing UV rays. The thing that stops me is that my step father got skin cancer (now in remission) and I am paranoid about getting it too. Otherwise I would run to the nearest tanning salon and pretend i was in the islands somewhere.
These were my favorite bears when I was little. I think I might still have my books.
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I read The Happiness Project last year and have thought about implementing ways to be happier. I am waiting on my turn at the library to re read it to refreshen my memory. I remember enough of it to note what I want to work on starting March 1st. I have decided that these are the things that would truly make me happier and that they would require the most work on my part since these seem the most difficult to implement.
Follow Flylady to keep a clean apt. I am the worlds messiest person I dont know if I am lazy or what but the mess drives me nuts. Home is supposed to be all comfty and cozy not a place you want to escape.
Follow Weight Watchers to lose weight. I recently hit an all time high with my weight and that woke me up to the fact that being fat is not good for my health. I can blame me meds or different things but ultimately I am the one who puts food in my mouth. I have accepted this is a life long journey and to take it one day and one pound at a time.
I will do these two for the month of March and I will see how much progress I can make. Every month I will add stuff to work on.
After sleeping for 15 hours last night I feel lots better. Maybe my friends are right and I need to stop all the caffeine or maybe it is the gloom and doom weather. I wish I could hibernate until spring time. Instead I do the next best thing and take Vitamin D3 and fish oil and spent a fortune on full spectrum light bulbs. They all seem to help. This is the first winter that I have not wanted to stab myself and curse the Gods of winter. Still not my favorite time but at least it is bearable.
I decided back in January that I was going to make 2012 the best year yet. I had very spefic goals to accomplish this. I was going to use Flylady for cleaning and Weight Watchers (I failed big time on low carb) for losing a significant amount of weight.
It is now February and i have to say that I am sticking to my goals pretty well. Well the losing weight part but not the cleaning part. Yesterday I did a through cleaning of my kitchen that took three hours. I have to say I felt accomplished by what I did. I am doing more “crisis cleaning” on the rest of my apartment and then i will start with flylady baby step. we have to remember that it is the little things that make us happy.
Yesterday it felt as if I was going to have a nervous breakdown. I realized it caused I gave up smoking, overeating and that is enough if u ask me. I feel that all my vices have been taken from me and unfortunately I take it out on the wrong people. Yesterday I did shop for things for my apt but I am going to have to find a cheaper hobby, Where I am a student now i have access to the school gym so maybe I will start working out. I need to start getting healthy habits to replace the bad ones. I dont mind working out but where I am so fat my back hurts after 5 mins of standing up. The pain is excruciating. I am not sure what to do about that. Any Ideas?
